Jenn Howe

Hello. 🙏 I’m Jenn Howe.  

I’m a creator who currently resides in Arkansas…although I wasn’t born here, and I don’t think I’ll die here.  

I like to entertain people and express myself via the arts — especially through my short films, photographs, and poetry.

I’m also a survivor of emotional/physical/mental abuse, molestation, rape, and several other dehumanizing and potentially life-destroying events…but I was stubborn, and I refused to give up the dream of a better future for myself. I spent years in search of a healthy, more functional way of living:  counseling, therapy, yoga, retreats, meditation, and countless books about trauma and codependence. But the one constant in my tumultuous life — the one method of healing that has always brought me closest to my best, truest self — was creative self-expression.

After much work and reflection, I now realize that my mission during this lifetime was/is twofold: 

1.  To first spend decades healing myself / learning how to love myself & this existence, then…
2.  To express that harrowing journey from abuse to recovery — from FEAR to LOVE — by utilizing my artistic gifts, and to share the resulting creations with the world in an attempt to heal and inspire others. 

So, while some of my creations are purely “fluff” or for fun, most of them have a deeper meaning and purpose:

1. The “dark/heavy” works are meant to help my fellow survivors realize that they are not alone, they are not crazy, and it was not their fault. My goal is to make them feel “seen” and understood, while hopefully inspiring them to step out from the shadows of terror and suppression to speak their own truth, and to express/heal their pain in their own unique and healthy ways — whether those methods are artistic in nature, or completely unrelated.
2. The “light/uplifting” works are meant to help my fellow survivors realize that there IS still hope and the possibility of a happy, healthy life. My goal is to help them see what is beautiful and good about this existence — maybe for the first time — and to make them understand that it is their divine birthright to feel safe, to be respected, to love themselves and know that they are enough, and to enjoy all that is magical and glorious during their time on this wondrous planet.  

Here’s a little bit more about me, in the form of a list…

“50 FAVORITE THINGS”

…one for each year of my life, so far:

50) My departed and beloved Muffin, 2008-2025. 🪽 💔 🐈‍⬛

49) “Scandinavia” — my 1st published collection of poetry

48) continuing to create unique things that I’m proud of…even if no one else cares or notices 

47) going after what I want…even if I’m afraid, even if I get embarrassed or “fail” — at least I tried 

46) surrender — knowing when to let go of something or someone, and move on

45) finally stepping fully into my power — I’m not the maiden in distress who needs to be saved from a dragon. I AM the dragon.

44) imagining the possibilities & adventures yet to come

43) poets, writers, and other artists who came before me / inspired me

42)  meditation

41)  time spent in nature

40)  the state of anticipation

39)  alone time

38)  willow trees

37)  silence

36)  travel / exploring new cities, states, and countries

35)  freedom

34)  freshly-ground & properly-brewed coffee

33)  gentleness

32)  a full moon

31)  shells and other treasures from the sea

30)  standing up for what’s right

29)  vinyl

28)  antiques, history

27)  fireflies and locusts on a summer night

26)  living a life that is kinder to ANIMALS

25)  the smell of honeysuckle

24)  honesty 

23)  dessert / sugary pleasures

22)  sunrise

21)  heading out for a walk or ride, without plans — going nowhere in particular

20)  handwritten letters, or other hand-crafted gifts

19)  questioning everything

18)  the smell of freshly cut grass

17)  learning something new

16)  healing my heart / emotional trauma through my own artistic expression

15)  rising above the bad people who have come into my life

14)  yoga

13)  meeting an equal

12)  the ocean/the sea

11)  dreams

10)  making something completely new – an original idea

9)  the story that each scar on my body tells

8)  peace

7)  respect

6)  a grateful attitude

5)  exercise/health/taking care of oneself

4) hope

3)  connection

2)  art, in all of its forms

1)  LANA

Thank you for stopping by.  I hope you see or read at least one thing that will heal and/or inspire you, as that is my aim with this blog, and also my greater purpose during this lifetime.  

Warmly and authentically,

Jenn